BESTSELF™ ICEBREAKER | Self-Awareness 19

WHERE IN YOUR LIFE ARE YOU MAKING UNHELPFUL ASSUMPTIONS? 

I often revert to the destructive narrative that I am not wanted, not welcome, not enough. There are a couple of current situations that lend support to that assumption. Before I got all caught up and emotional about it, I considered the players involved and as a result, feel better about who I am and how I’m finally showing up for myself.

That negative narrative and assumption of my worthiness is less prevalent here in my new drama-free life.

In real life, as well as on-line life, things are quiet. I have my routines and patterns, I’m filling my life with only the things that bring me joy and saying “no” to anything that is not. I’m accepting invitations and challenges and putting myself way outside my comfort zone because: WHY NOT? What do I have to lose? I’ve lost many things in my life and so far, I’m still here. There is so much more to gain by challenging myself. I’m enjoying a good flow of comforts and challenges, never too much of any one feeling but the knowledge that I can go back and forth whenever I feel the urge.

The negative narrative and assumptions continue to be there, at the back of my mind, but now with a little less volume. I understand that they are foundational parts, they are at the core of my being, they are the thoughts, demands, and expectations of those who raised me. I hear it all when I drive up to a strangers home for Dinner Club or Book Club or meet someone new for lunch or a photo walk. So far none of it has stopped me from participating in my new life, and that’s definite progress!

I’m not quite at the point that I assume I’ll be accepted or that people are looking forward to seeing me, but I’m not shutting down or shutting in.