This month brought two shifts.
NOTE: Simple shifts are not simple. Sometimes, most times, they require big changes in attitude and a thorough re-write of the stories we tell ourselves.
As always, the shifts will be ongoing. Challenging and complex; simple and sustainable, either way WORTH IT. It’s all about adjusting my attitude and expectations toward a given topic and tweaking it a bit, or, sometimes even a thorough re-write of the stories I tell myself.
I spent the first three weeks of this month taking a Daily Guidance course with Susannah Conway. Over the last year or so I have really been embracing the “woo” and this course really solidified that practice. Along with many other things, each morning we were encouraged to pull a 3-card spread and journal about the cards pulled. It was fascinating to me how my cards flowed from day to day. I enjoyed learning about Tarot, which initially terrified me and now I am far more comfortable. By far my favourite deck is Wisdom of the Oracle and I’m afraid I enabled many participants to purchase their own! Do I use the cards to direct my days? No. I enjoy that they open my mind each morning to the possibility the day offers. I enjoy the synchronicity found in the same card pulled day after day. I enjoy that cards are not what they might seem to be at first. I enjoy the gentle guidance. If there was ever any doubt about the “woo” in my life, there is no doubt any more. The practice of pulling three cards will be in my life long-term!
SHIFT: Acceptance that there is really something to this “woo” thing and I want to incorporate my cards into my morning routine – somewhere between the hot lemon water and taking the dog out for his morning constitutional.
(Five cards above as it was the “get to know you” portion of the course. The purpose of this deck in my life? It is to bring me peace. I can deal with a little peace for sure!)
GET WITH THE PROGRAM
Seriously? The weight just has to go. What a frustrating experience. The same week my endocrinologist tells me my blood work is finally normal, I end up at the hospital with a DVt. I don’t even see the hematologist until the end of the month. Argh! One delay after the next. ENOUGH ALREADY. What can I do NOW to see some results. Over the last few years I’ve changed my eating habits, my moving habits, my thought habits. I got all of the mind stuff – the icky, gooey, messy, feelings – dealt with in order to prepare for the time my thyroid would be ready to function properly. Some of the icky gooey lingers and always will, but I’m ready to move forward. Now, I know I am not defined by my weight but it drags me down, physically and emotionally. Plus others define me by my weight and I’m just tired of it. I cannot reach my potential with an anchor! So, I invested in a new program – I’m promised it is sustainable – and I will give it 100% to get down to a size that I can feel healthy. I simply want to be healthy, flexible and strong. I do believe with Rita and her program that is possible. NOTE: The week before holiday is not the best time to start a lifestyle change like this!
SHIFT: I am not destined to be fat and slow. Fat is not some kind of punishment – or armour – anymore. Once I find a sustainable program that allows me the right balance between eating well and moving more, weight and pain will start to disappear naturally. All I have to do is do what I do best: stay consistent. This is a great test for me to continue to make choices in alignment with my highest good.
Simple? Nope! Not even close.
Worth it? Absolutely.