HELLO 100 DAY TRACKERS | September marks the return of routine. I have been having a terrible time the last month getting my thoughts together enough to focus on what I need to do to take care of myself and not get lost in a puddle of grief. With the help of this 100 Day tracker, I’ve chosen a few things that need to be my daily priorities going forward: Meditate, Write toward the NYT article, Pull an Oracle Card and journal about it, Walk Tucker and Finn, Read 50 pages of a novel, Write 1,000 new words toward the completion of my own novel, and, attend reformer Pilates with Jackie (3x/week). I will commit to working on these projects every day for the next 100 days. It’s purposely not an overwhelming or particularly ambitious list, simply one that will get me into a natural flow of life as it used to be BB (before Bill).
HELLO 56 | Recently I went through the photos of my last 12-months and marvelled over the changes in my life over a COVID-19 influenced year. What a journey of growth, of grief, of joy, of unconditional love and understanding, of support, of boundary setting, of acceptance and allowing, of disappointment, of challenges and victories, of kindness, of community and friendship. I live the best life. I’m surrounded by the best possible people. My love might not be here with me but he is still with me every day.
HELLO BOOKS | After months and months of ordering more recommended reads, I’m inundated with more books on top of a whole library of Bill’s books – almost all of which have been annotated! It’s time to come out of the unfocused murky mists to take stock of what is piled up! And find more for a couple of courses. My goodness, I need to get a handle on the volumes coming into the house.
HELLO EDINBURGH | Deciding whether or not to have Chloé go back to school overseas is a crapshoot. Her UK friends are going to help her with her 14-day quarantine and they have it all planned. I’m thrilled she is going to have so much help and will have a relatively easy re-entry after her cushy ride in business class. (Physical distancing = there’s a first time for everything!) As it stands right now, she won’t be back home until next May due to the COVID-19 situation and the quarantine requirements. Depending on how things go, I might take a trip or two to see her and bring a sibling or two. All I know is that she will be greatly missed while away for her final year. It’s her time to focus on the dissertation then she’ll get her Masters in History from one of the best universities in the world!
HELLO SUNDAYS | I take a moment every Sunday at 5:17PM to remember Bill. I give thanks for him. Everything about Billy Gulliver was a gift to me. He was my Anam Cara. So much more than soul mate – he was my eternity. He will be mine forever and I will be his and this sadness is only temporary.
HELLO MONDAY | You are my favourite: I love that you provide me with 52 fresh starts every year.