LIST 15 | List the situations where you could take more emotional risks and the people you could take such risks with.
I don’t know that I can take a bigger risk than I did with Bill. The ending was the absolute worst, but I loved him in a way that surprised me. I was completely truthful and laid my heart bare for him. I didn’t know I had that level of unconditional love, openness, forgiveness, understanding, gratitude, confidence, humour, and patience in me. He cracked me wide open and brought out the very best in me, and I did the same for him. He was my Anam Cara, my heart.
I’m sure there will be another situation – certainly not the same – but something will come up where I will be able to explore the joy in those emotions again – maybe not all at once, but shining hints of memory. My kids will find partners, have children, life will ebb and flow.
In the meantime, I will keep my emotional risks on paper with honest and vulnerable characters both willing and reluctant to explore them.