LIST 05 | List the ways you want to grow and improve as a person: emotionally, intellectually, spiritually, and physically.
There is not enough time or space to list all the ways I have already grown and improved over the last decade or so – and I honestly don’t know what more is left to be done. Not that my personal evolution is over, I’m far from perfect and don’t want that to be the goal.
What is the goal? To be happy and connected, living in gratitude and grace.
I’m going in that direction, my plans include:
EMOTIONAL | For the first 40+ years of my life, I learned to show very little soft or weak emotion – only anger was accepted as a legitimate way to feel. How wrong was that? As an empath it was exhausting and I knew it to be wrong but didn’t have the wherewithal to do anything but conform for my own sanity. Now I know better. I want to continue to stay open and feel all of those soft and weak emotions: compassion, grief, kindness, vulnerability, love, pain, wonder. They all lead to a full life and I no longer want to suppress them or live in transactional relationships.
INTELLECTUAL | One of my greatest strengths is my endless curiosity and drive to learn – I don’t see that changing anytime soon. It is in my bones this burning need to know more, and then more again. I engage with my children in all manner of taboo topics: politics, religion, music, economics, sexuality – there is no topic that can’t be discussed around our dinner table which usually leads to the family room. They are all passionate and informed about their beliefs. They keep me engaged and informed!
SPIRITUAL | My spiritual views are pretty well-formed and the basic feeling of them hasn’t changed very much over the years – though, the terminology and my understanding have evolved. I believe that we live in a conscious universe and that all I do, all we do, is in co-creation with spirit. I’m open to accepting more growth and understanding through my daily practices (meditation, journaling, and woo). Since Bill’s passing my views have been reinforced as I feel him with me daily – his gentle strength and kind nature surround me.
PHYSICAL | Though my move to Southampton has hit a speed bump, I’ll not let that deter me from my goal to move more and take good care of myself. I’ve faced my daemons and many of them are physical. I used to be an athlete and miss that part of my life. I may not get back to that level (notice, I’m not ruling it out) but I will make a conscious effort to move with purpose every day – my mini-trampoline and skipping rope are coming to the condo. Movement combined with my medication (thyroid, asthma), clean eating, no booze drinking, ASEA and VoxxLife practice and drinking plenty of water and getting 7+ hours of sleep every night will get me where I need to be.
And hey, while I am not looking for Mr. Forever I may just find Mr. Fun For Now during my 6-month suspension of real-life – I’m living proof that stranger things have happened.
Cheers to growth and improvement!