LIST 02 | List the issues, struggles, and challenges within yourself that you want to build the bravery to tackle or face.
Well, I suppose sharing them publicly would build the bravery to tackle and face the issues, struggles and challenges within myself.
I’m a pretty open book and share a lot of personal opinions, thoughts, dreams and fears here on the blog, Facebook and Instagram. I feel that by showing up and sharing from my personal experience that I can give others the encouragement they need to do the same. This prompt will definitely have me dig a bit deeper than usual, but hey, that’s why I choose to share my responses to evocative prompts openly on social media. If you’re looking for perfection you might want to move on, you won’t find most of that here. Sure, I strive for excellence but perfection is best left to the younger set on Instagram!
I struggle with:
… regaining the innate confidence I once had in my youth – the ability to walk in any room with the brash knowledge that I belong. Am I brave enough to put myself in situations that test me?
… finishing my own writing projects. If/when I do, that means I have to do something with them and risk rejection so most of my projects continue to be “in progress” including myself. Am I brave enough to write to completion and submit, and risk rejections?
… knowing what to do to honour Bill’s (surprisingly many) requests, my memorial plans and my proper place in the lives of those he left behind. Am I brave enough to let things simply play out and hope he forgives me if I should fail his expectations?
… coming to terms with my armour. For the longest time, my weight was a welcome defence as it protected me from untenable situations. I’ve learned I can be loved fully as a partner in spite of it. Am I brave enough to shed it to look and feel like me again?
… resting, simply taking time for myself to watch a movie, read a book, listen to a podcast, without having a simultaneous second or third project on the go. Am I brave enough to allow myself to slow down and just be rather than be productive, if only for a little while?
There it is, my inner fears and challenges within myself, laid bare. It may ring true to you, it may be ridiculous, but they’re mine to work through.