What emerged over the month?
Fear and Dismay. From here, at my desk in “the Great White North,” I listened, daily, to the crazy that is all that is happening in the U.S. and overseas – the violence, the intolerance, the complete lack of control and decency. Even one of “The Tenors” had the audacity to make a political statement at the MLB All Star Game! So un-Canadian. Guns. Terror. France (again). Trump. Fallout. Clinton. Blame. Turkey (again). Complete lack of accountability or responsibility. I sit here in relative silence with half of my kids overseas and my heart in my throat until they get home. By mid-month I simply turned off the television news programs and adjusted my social media feeds, not to manifest ignorance but to limit my exposure to the crazy. By the end of the month, I was filled with expansive energy and found myself sending love and kindness and generosity and compassion out to the world. The crazy cannot be fixed by fear it can only be confronted with enough love to have those in fear be comforted.
What were the big and small victories?
Caden went to Iceland with his cousin and they had a wonderful time! Getting there, they flew all night and then went straight to the Blue Lagoon from the airport. I’m proud of him for his 94% in the initially intimidating photography course. | It’s official, Chloé is on House Council for the next school year and moves into residence earlier than expected. | Claire and I watched Hair and she recognized so many of the songs as those I sung when my babies were little. | I put up replacement twinkle (fairy) lights (with cable ties this time) on the back deck. Then the electricity stopped working. Must get that fixed! In the meantime, feeding an extension cord through a window is not ideal but it works. | At the UofT camps, Cole worked with an 8 year old, high functioning autistic boy, then a 7 year old boy with Cerebral Palsy and will spend the rest of the summer with a boy with ADD/ADHD. To know Cole you’d think this would be a disaster but he really enjoys it and has “the patience of a saint” according to his boss. | The big canvas photos of the kids have been re-hung above the pew. They had been taken down to make room for the gallery shelves in the family room. | UNSUBSCRIBE! I cleaned out my inbox and at the same time unsubscribed from oodles of used-to-be important mail lists, now they just add to the noise. | I hired a friend who knows how to paint to spruce up my outdoor table and chairs. She did an excellent job! | Finally, my key fob for Lexi works. | Mid-month the 78 Mirrors course started. Fascinating! | Throughout the house, carpets have been cleaned and they look new. I am ridiculously happy about that. | In spite of being alone, I managed to get into the groove of making real meals for myself. No more cereal or yogurt for dinner. | Sleepovers in Toronto. Tucker and I went to visit the boy (and my sister and BIL, too!) twice this month. | Mid-month I turned off the news – or anything that could be considered US politics related, which of course trickles into “entertainment,” in an effort to escape Trump. That turned out to be impossible. He is so disgusting and inflammatory he’s everywhere. | A whole crap load of stuff was let go to celebrate the full moon in Capricorn. I think this is going to be a good cycle coming up. | I enjoyed a 90+ minute conversation with my 91 year old aunt. So much fun! | The brilliant Cathy Zielske has a new class to make scrapbooking easier. The idea being that it is okay to let go of the need to save it all. Imagine. 30 or less photos a month? Fewer but more meaningful stories. Did I say brilliant? I mean brilliant. Love CZ. | A dear family friend has been diagnosed with lung cancer, BUT the good news is she is a perfect candidate for surgery. Fingers (and toes) crossed all goes well! | Cole got into all of the courses he wants for next year, at the times he wanted. Second year is already off to a good start! | Chloé had a wonderful time overseas and got 96% in her World History course. | Claire had a group of co-workers over for a low-key party. | Salt Lamps! I got a dozen. Clarity and purification for all. | Claire left for Birmingham, UK to take a course in medieval architecture. The girl has quirky interests. | Aunt Anne was buried in the family cemetery in the Miramichi on the only day of the summer neither Beth or I could possibly make it. A date chosen by people who didn’t go. | How I love my Get To Work Book. | Tucker is so funny – he follows tennis balls and golf balls on the television screen. And there has been a lot of tennis and golf watched this month! | Shoes! Caden destroyed his shoes in Iceland and consented to go to the shoe store – so I bought him 7 pairs.
What were the lessons?
There seemed to be a 24-hour curse on us on the 5th – 6th. Claire and Cole met me out at Pearson to say goodbye to Chloé. It took an hour to check in at Air Transat. Cole left since we could only go in line with a parent and child. In the meantime, it took Claire that same amount of time to not get my drink from Starbucks as they forgot mine but got hers. Chloé got dropped off with her group and I we went to get our cars. I paid for Claire’s parking and mine and then proceeded to get lost in the parking structure (not a first for me). I got a call from Claire who had given her brother her car key as she didn’t have a purse or pockets. We got my truck and drove to my sister’s house. Cole was at his girlfriend’s house. We waited another hour for him to get home. Back to the airport to get Claire’s car. Back to Oakville to let Tucker out only to realize Claire was at Enterprise to drop off her rental. Picked her up. We got home to hear from Chloé that her flight was delayed, then delayed again. Ugh. Chloé arrived in England but her luggage did not. Her bag wanted to go to Rome and arrived a day late. She was in a state and parenting from an ocean away is a challenge. | My painting class was cancelled and no call. Annoying. I was really looking forward to it! | Claire has severe thyroid disease but loves our endocrinologist. Plan of action to be determined in September. | Rogers is now on Facebook Messenger – great, right? Nope. 2.5 hours to fix my plan all because my name on FB is not identical to that on my account, even after answering all of the security questions. Annoying. | Pusateri’s here in Oakville opened early in the month. I waited a week expecting it to be busy. Wrong. I was the only one in the store at 9:30AM and they had nothing I was looking for and a lot of things I can get at Fortino’s for half the price. #unimpressed | After all that with Rogers our data was suspended for 24 hours. Clearly one department does not speak to the other. Frustrating! | Holy sick! According to Dr. Google it was food poisoning or an allergic reaction. Knocked me flat for 24+ hours. | One lost VISA card. In Iceland. | The cost to replace the “fancy” remote control broken while Caden fell up the stairs? $620. Insane.
I greatly enjoy getting in sync with the phases of the moon and the changing of the seasons. It rings so much more authentic to me than so many other options. Over the past few months I’ve incorporated a few rituals into my life that honour my new sensibilities. There are so many options, I’m enjoying trying out many things and keeping what rings true: colouring astrological mandalas, burning limiting beliefs and habits I need to let go, welcoming feelings and ideas, reading tarot spreads, minding the wheel of the year and corresponding sabbat celebration, pendulum work, manifesting wishes, casting circles, becoming aligned with my chakras and guiding forces. In essence, I am getting in touch with the Divine Feminine and it is overwhelming in scope, but welcoming in it’s gentle strength and guidance. This is the journey I need to take especially in these precarious times, I need to embrace ancient wisdom and practice.
ENJOYING EVERYDAY LIFE
There’s too many of you crying
Brother, brother, brother
There’s far too many of you dying
You know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some lovin’ here today – Ya
We don’t need to escalate
You see, war is not the answer
For only love can conquer hate
You know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some lovin’ here today
Don’t punish me with brutality
Talk to me, so you can see
Oh, what’s going on
What’s going on
Ya, what’s going on
Ah, what’s going on
Right on, baby
Oh, but who are they to judge us
Simply because our hair is long
Oh, you know we’ve got to find a way
To bring some understanding here today
OhPicket lines and picket signs
Don’t punish me with brutality
Talk to me
So you can see
What’s going on
Ya, what’s going on
Tell me what’s going on
I’ll tell you what’s going on – Uh
Right on baby
Right on baby
What we watched and enjoyed: Lots of live sports from overseas. Wimbledon, wow! | The Open. I love seeing David Duval doing commentary. In his day he was my favourite player. | “Hair” the musical from 1979. | More golf and more tennis. | Grey’s Anatomy with Caden.
Weather: Summer was a long time coming but wow, did it arrive! I’m not used to 40C weather in July – or for it to last as long as it did. Serious “heat wave” weather that lasted for days on end without a break. With the oppressive humidity we usually have thunderstorms but not this month. I’m concerned over the lack of rain, it is not a good thing.
RIP: Another tough month – Elie Wiesel, Romanian-born writer, political activist and Holocaust survivor, Nobel Laureate (1986) | Anarchy in the US. Terrifying. So many senseless deaths. | France, again. Turkey, again. | Gary Marshall, the good-natured director of many movies and television shows of my youth.
Unexpected: Claire was at Zenbar and texted that all the ladies sent their regards and she thought they all love me and that “it is hilarious”. My response was to let her know that she was being silly and that I do my best to not stand out. Then I got this: “You’re a pleasant person to be around. Very friendly and outgoing. And you have a presence – you walk into a room and the mood changes automatically into a better one!” After a tough week parenting my willful eldest it was nice to receive these kind words.
Discovery: PhotoSweeper, once I get it figured out, should help me go through my 100,000 photos on my laptop – and then go through all of the photos on a few external hard drives. Big project. I’ll be happy to get it finished!
Exhale: It took too long, but I finally got my Aunt Beth’s 90th Birthday book made and printed! I am pleased with the results and hope she is too. I made it somewhat interactive so that she can write in her own words her memories of the people and the day. Soon after the event in July 2015, my summer went into high gear so I left the project for September. In September my cousin passed away and then my cousin split with his wife and who knows what else was happening in the family. I finally realized that a scrapbook/album/memory book is just a quick snapshot of a time and place and it wasn’t up to me to edit it. So I did my best and it is what it is. A lovely memory book for a wonderful woman. BONUS, I had a 90-minute talk with her mid month. I hope to be as spry as she is at 91!
Online Courses: Fierce Grace Collective with Carrie Anne Moss; Creativity Workshop with Elizabeth Gilbert; Sacred Wheel Immersion with Allison Carr; Fairyologist with Doreen Virtue; Ask Your Guides with Sonia Choquette; The Moon Sisterhood with Anne Hayman; The Inside Story and 78 Mirrors with Susannah Conway; 50 Questions with Heather Plett; Inner Excavation with Liz Lamoreaux; One Little Word with Ali Edwards; and, FIT2016 with Cathy Zielske.
In-person Courses: A break – until next month!
How was your July? What are you noticing in your life?