LIST 41 | List the things you are looking forward to repeating in your life.
This time of pandemic has given me plenty of time to ponder what I am going to invite back into my life when we can leave the house without a facemask and fear.
Travel. We had planned to go to the Faroe Islands, Ireland, Iceland, and Greenland for our honeymoon next June. I look forward to the time I’ll be able to travel again.
Babies. Not my babies, my grandbabies. I’m willing to wait, but I am looking forward to all things baby.
Love. I think the greatest lesson of my time with Bill was that I know for certain that I can love and be loved in return. I enjoyed having a companion. I’d like to do that again.
Sex. Complete, exposed, vulnerable, trusting, orgasmic, fun sex. Of course, the sacred giving and receiving – but mostly the fun.
Writing courses. I take courses at UofT in their Continuing Studies program toward my certification in creative writing. I’m accustomed to the majority of classes being online but in the summers there are a couple of weeks where in-person classes are available. I like the give-and-take of having others provide feedback on my work. I’m hoping for that to be a real thing again.
Fresh start. The town in which I raised my children was ideal for me. Until it wasn’t. Losing Bill had me reevaluate all that I thought was important in my life. Then my son, Cole, asked a simple question: what’s keeping you here? I had no good answer. As a result, I had my home up for sale within three weeks (just prior to Mercury retrograde – whew!) Fingers crossed someone who loves it as much as I do will enjoy living here.
Confidence. I miss the natural bravado – joie de vivre – of my youth. A rejection or hard no was simply a reason to take a new approach, become creative. I was rarely deterred. I think I’ll do that more – with my writing, with my choices, with my life.
I found this, and it’s perfect: